the beauty in errors

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You are not alone on this :) I feel this too. Especially now Im craving to move out of the house :’( but i cant

finimara:

I HATE MONEY. (bitter post ahead)

I’m usually a happy person & love the simple joys of life! But there are just days that I feel really really feel down. It’s Usually it’s when I go out… Why? Coz I see all these things that I can’t afford :(

I was in School a while ago. And I want to punch those hipsters girls who dress up as if they are going to a party or what. It’s freakin’ school!?! Why are wearing heels / hats / tight skirts etc. etc. but maybe it’s the bitterness talking. I’m probably bitter coz they probably have a closet full of branded clothes & can wear whatever they want on a very unspecial / regular school day… *sigh*

Then I find out that a friend of mine is going to the #1 place every girl dreams to go to: PARIS. I can’t help being sooooooooooooo jealous! I feel x 10000 bad coz I really want to travel! I want to go to this and that but we just can’t afford it! I feel bad for myself & it’s as if I’m panicking to leave! I don’t want to go to Bali or Japan when I’m 40 or 50. I want to enjoy the world while I’m young! But this dream will just have to wait :( *sigh*

And don’t get me started with gadgets! Cellphones/ Cameras/ Ipods / Computers! etc.

My family hasn’t experienced having a decent family digi cam. since my DSLR was stolen after only a few months with us. We can’t really afford a new one. So during milestones we always had to borrow our cousin’s camera. It’s not the best but it will have to do. But if they need it then will just have to memorize the memories of that event.

My last decent phone was my K800i. If it still can text and receive messages It would still be my current phone. But I’ll just have to settle with a hand me down nokia. I’m trying to save up for a SE Vivaz (P15k) or whatever android phone… but there’s just so many unexpected expenses right now… :( So this dream shall have to wait as well… *sigh* and yet there are some people who change phones / laptops as if they were changing their underwear. It’s as if 10 - 30k is like spare change in their wallets. life is unfair BOO.

There are just days that I really feel soooo bad for myself. And this is one of those moments…I hate money. I hate my materialistic wants and needs. & I hate spoiled brats who don’t deserve their wealth. There are people who complain about how hard their life is and I want to kick their asses. They don’t know how and what “poor” is. so STFU.

yeah yeah I’m bitter…. la di da… But this phase of life is just making me impatient and negative. Right now all I can afford is to window shop. When I go out I don’t want to look around coz i’ll just feel bad. I have a job but can hardly afford anything. I bring packed lunch so I can save on food expenses… gaahhhh! >:(

I just can’t wait for that day that i can get that nice dress or buy shoes / bags just so that It will match the dress.

*sigh*

Even if there’s so many things I rant about. At the end of the day. I’m still very much thankful for my life. Yeah sure I can’t afford a million things BUT I have an awesome boyfriend. I have a great family. I have a new baby cousin. I have a roof on my head. I have food to eat at home. I have a bed / pillows/ blanket. I have clothes (even if I reapeat them often). I’m pretty (hihi vain). I have tons of flats (even if most are faded and hurt my feet) I finished college. I have a job. etc. etc. this list can go on…

So excuse me for ranting too much… I just had to let some steam out. :)

arianesantos:

thatgirlchuicide:

itouchtouchthings:

(I have a three-six-five over here; it’s a fancy way of saying diary.)

132/ September 9, 2010 - This is how.

There are times when I do not want to be the one you end up with. I would rather be a thought that wakes you violently in the morning, a dream that sends you toppling over the boxes in your room, urging you to rummage madly, but you will not find what you are missing. I want to be the forgotten letter you pull out of a dusty drawer by mistake, the words that cause your lungs to ache as your eyes trace the slant of my handwriting with water. I want to be the photograph tucked safely inside your favorite book, the one you’ll never let your wife read. You will feel the need to look for me in every girl you meet. And you will remember me when you wear the black jacket that’s missing a button; you will think of how you lost it and what we were doing when you did. I want to be as wild and wanting and wicked as regret is known to be. Perhaps more.

I want to be the lover who will never age in your heart. The firestrong, windfierce mistress to every memory you love.

I love this.

<3

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thisismakebelieve:

ohmierda:

papertissue:

Beautiful!