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2010 | 1 year ago And in that moment, I waited for my feelings to come back. Like it always did when we’re talking, when I’m with you, when you’re making me feel like you honestly love me. But it never did. It felt odd, yet somehow, I knew it was right. So I guess this is how it feels, moving on. Completely. A hundred percent. I never thought this could actually happen, considering how in love with you I have been. How I swore, and still do, that you are above any man I have ever met in my life. You are different. You gave me feelings people write novels about. But now, I’ve realized, our story was more like a fairytale. Everything with you is unreal. A fantasy that I would have gladly live forever, given the chance. I loved you, not the real you, but the you that I kinda new, the you that was above everyone, the you that you made me believe you were. This is getting pretty long. I just want you to know that you’re still special to me but in a completely different way. I don’t ever want to forget you. I want to keep every memory I could keep - the messages I have saved for too long, the sweet laughter we’ve shared a gazillion times, the kisses, the first times. Everything. Even the bad ones. You made me stronger by breaking my heart. And for that, I thank you. You have changed me and my life in many wonderful ways. You made me a better, stronger, much smarter person. You’ve set a new standard that would make it hard for me to look for the next one who would take your place. It feels good, writing this all down, consuming more than 10 parts of messages, thinking about even posting this in my blog. I guess I wouldn’t be able to tell you how an amazing person I think you are, but I hope this does help. I feel free, I feel happy and my eyes are incredibly dry. I would still love you. Not in the same way, but as family. The way I should have from the very beginning. It’s funny how I can’t find the perfect words to end this, whatever this is I’m doing. Seven months? People are wrong, it was never a waste of time. During those seven months, I gave love - true unrequited love. A love most kids my age look for but fail to find. You have given me a lesson to treasure forever. Again, I thank you. Goodbye. I can honestly say that I wish you well. I hope you find the perfect girl for you. Thank you, for everything there is to thank for. Goodluck. Be happy and take care.
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